the constellation of moving on

what if you bought a brand new watch and then you don't think it's worth it, you lost it but you regret it?
well, i just did but it just a dream
the dream that makes you feel like, you will lose hope, but when you wake up, you know that hope is still alive, but what if he died when you aren't ready yet?

will people give you respect you deserve? or jobs you wanted? or you rowling around his grave craving about certainty of life?

no you can't live without him.
neither do i.